All Pins and Needles

I've been browsing the blogdom of authors and have come across something refreshing.  What I've seen is a good deal of honesty and frankness about the challenges of writing.  Authors sharing what it feels like to doubt, to hit the wall, and to generally struggle with the processes involved.

Somehow it's encouraging to know I'm not alone, that not all writers are superhuman creative machines able to jam out a novel without a hint of doubt or effort. This is one of those oddities, though, where I've read time and again about authors not always feeling confident, yet they go on and do it anyway to reach their goals and, often, success. If I've already read about the phenomenon, why do I feel so alone with it?  Maybe it's just hard to believe.... Stephen King doubt his writing? Hard to imagine, yet he did.

Finding new authors like myself who face similar feelings makes it more realistically "normal". What it does is help ease some of the anxiety, and reminds me to keep moving forward. I will need to be brave when it comes to critical review. I'll need to look for the path to growth as a writer in whatever S7 receives.

To begin to receive that review, I need to put it out there. More than ever, I realize it's time to man up and actually put System Seven in production and see how it is received. Then play nine and adjust, etc. I'm all pins and needles as I approach the time for it.

All worry aside, there is an excitement that comes with the prospect of "launching" my first novel. Whether it or not it does "well", I know I put a lot of care and effort into the script and that at least some will see that and appreciate what it offers. To think of someone enjoying what I created is a thrill unto itself!